F*** Off

F*cking tired & fed up with all of them!

no bother

you all deserve it~

M & S

missing Malacca..
or should I say was actually
missing the time we both went to Malacca..
Planning to go by or before June,
For 2nights perhaps..
Alone? Probably.. Highly possible..
too much of disappointment from you,
Even though I wish going together w you!
Even though so long as is w you,
I don't mind going anywhere.
BUT highly possible going alone!

Dec will be Singapore...
Probably I guess,
Perhaps more towards to disappointment again maybe..
Don't know!

too much of tears! too much of loneliness! too much of missing!
I'm totally losing myself.. because of you!
Forget it, sure you never realized it..
I guess i deserve to being lonely & alone!
I can feel it even more, after being together w you!

your time very PRECIOUS,
not using for wasting it w me! I KNOW!
you're important things & people, no longer me! I KNOW
Your priority isn't me, not me, already replaced by something else..

Don't even expect you got your FREE time,
to read anything about me!
to know everything about me!
to even understand me!

M

wanna go Malacca visit again.....
2 days...... 3 days.........
but I guess...
end up.....
will be going alone again this time..
probably...
DEFINITELY NOT GOING ON DEC. earlier than that..
sigh....
since when its start become this way.....
everything alone alone alone~
alone ranger.. no different when m single...
all alone.......

S

Stupid Me

Swollen

Eyes swollen
Tears dropping non-stop
from yesterday until now
Why must always the HARDER on me
I did anything wrong?
I deserve to endure everything &
take all the hard n' tough one?
Everything,
I give my everything to you!
But what i got from you?
I lose everything!
I never wanting it to end this way
But why
Why are you always say until
I'm the one who want this end!

Never

I never ever wanted to let go
I never ever wanted to break up
I never ever wanted to give up
BUT
nobody understand
my feelings
my pains
my hurts

Difficulties

You're not in my situation
so,
please don't just simply telling me
ignore, not to bother or forget it!
How will you feel if is you?
Did you ever think from my point of view?
I never compare,
because i know myself is
far far behind other peoples!
everything you asked for, i never say no!
but you never consider my feelings,
who are the selfish one here?
all you want is just make sure
i won't affect your work won't affect your family,
what about me? i know m tiny &
now only I know i was actually not important to you!
You don't really need me,
sticking w me, you're just
having more burdens, troubles..
you see,
now even we phone talk also your mum keep asking you go & sleep.
Even your mum also indirectly telling you,
I'm no longer suitable for you,
doesn't match you at all.
BUT
Most difficult decisions you've had to make in your life is
when you too tired to hold on, but too in love to let go.

)=

Crying me,
Crying every night~
Dare not to let you know~
Unsecured, Uncertainty, Loneliness...............
I'm so weak, yea right!
I'm not a tough one as others see!
I'm fragile! Because of you!

Lonely

I guess..
LONELY love me,
thats why always stick with me!

I guess..
STUPID fall in love with me,
thats why never be smart!

I guess..
BAD LUCK likes me,
thats why exam always lack of luck!

I guess..
I meant to being so LONELY~
I guess..