Hysterical x__X

Recently,

Was kind that,
TIRING..
EXHAUSTING..
HYSTERICAL..
How many scars,
have to 'create' to myself?
How many times,
persuading myself not to do it this way?
I'm already,
NUMB about it!
Already Forgotten,
whats the feeling of PAIN!?
Trying hard,
Not to do so..
..But..
..................................
The way i express and release..
absolutely not everyone
able to ACCEPT it!!