A day with a friend who 'usually' didn't turn his promise on!

Today was a great day. KC already promised me many times that he wanted to come my home find me, but he didn't keep his promised. Why he didn't keep his promise? All this is because he don't have car to drive to my home. How far he stayed? That's supreme bloody far--Kota Kemuning!! (Near Shah Alam area) Really damn far for me because I don't even owned a driving license. =.= But for him not that far actually. In condition got extra car for him to drive=)
Morning time, I call KC but he didn't pick up. But then later he called back LS. Noon time, CH go LS house take her then come over my house fetch me as well then we went KC's home. Reached his home then only realise that he didn't pick up my call this morning is because he still lying on his bed and no 'energy' to pick up my phone call as he too too too sleep! (sleep until noon time also said sleepy! Really no medicine to cure!!). He really home-alone nobody else at home!!
Thought sit for awhile but then we went for movies at Sunway Pyramid watched Underworld 3. TGV there damn a lot of peoples. Somehow we get to buy 16:30 tickets for the movie. This movies really not bad. Worth to watched =) (with student price only Rm8/= per person) ^^
Finished movie already 18:00++ LS claim that she's hungry. Therefore we plan to 'search' a place for our dinner. Final decision we go Pizza Hut for our dinner. It's already been a long long time I didn't eat Pizza Hut. (already 3years didn't eat at all) Supposedly after the dinner we should visit another friend's home. But because lack of time and very time consuming (as another friend stay PJ area). Hence end up we just 'return' back to KC's home continue our 'entertainment' =)
Suddenly, half way through the 'entertainment' his brother and sister-in-law come back from somewhere. What to do? Obviously wishing them Happy Chinese New Year for sure=)
After the few hours of 'entertainment' ... 23:30 we went to the nearest McD for drinks and chats!! (I treated them for sure because of some betting) Then we chat this and that here and there. I do understand that what you all trying to tell me=) Thanks dear=) (I mean dear friends for sure)
End of today, we back from KC's house from 01:00am. CH sent us (me & LS) back! Arrived my home already 01:35am. Not late, not that early! Finish shower and bla bla bla already 02:00am. Sleep in while soon!! I do really enjoying a great and wonderful day today!! WONDERFUL =)

Hesitate Again?

Hesitate again? Isn't just promise to myself that day would be the last time! What am I doing now? Or I'm just left out too many things between us. Stop asking me out. Don't makes me holds anything about you. All the while, I believe that I'm able to handle it. Those blogs that you spent time and write together with me. I do really appreciated a lot. I remember how you taught me within 2 years to improve my lousy mandarin. I do know that you can rather give up your dreams and come back to find me. I know you can do more for me compare with last time. Anyhow, don't forget that 3years ago is you yourself who saying that we should go for our own dreams. That time... you agreed and I agreed. Yea, there's nothing wrong that go for our dreams. But before you lefted our problem already occured. Before the lady step in, our problem already occured. Is there any reason behind that now you want to hold me back? But that day was the last day, I will not give myself any chance for us. I will not give myself any excuse for myself to have a chance write blog with you. Some memories it's really hard to forget because it's full of memories. Some memory I don't want to forget as well. So please don't come to me any closer. I don't know how many time I can control myself. Do not say easily forever, your pledge load that many.

Someone who being lost in the dense fog

Tonight.. have a great chat with my dear best friend. No doubt that's really a wonderful great chats. After tonights chats, I getting to understand her not absolutely but at least getting to know her well compared to last time. How long been we knew each other? Not a really long period for me. Yea, not really a long period! But both of us have that kind of 'secret agreement'. There's lots of similarity between us. I really can't imagine this. It's so amazing and fantastics =) Fate that brings both of us together? I guess so! I do really learnt a lot from her. I really apreciated our friendship very much and I'm glad that she treated me as her best friend! She know a lot about me and I do so know a lot about her. She used to remind me and wants me to bear in mind that 'don't get injured, always flirt with cautions.'. Perhaps, someday she may being astray being lost... And need someone to be there for her. I bet here, no matter how what when where, when she need a friend for help I'll be there for her. She meant what she trying to express to me and so me too =)Friend, you're the one who advised me don't hide myself and try to tell out what problem I'm facing when I facing something that I cannot go through. I wish you bear in mind what you told and advise me too. You're not alone. Yea, you might feel lonely sometimes, then think about me=) I will come to you when you need a friend. Don't hide yourself too! Everyone has their own story, everybody has their past. No people likes to disclose their past like headline news to everyone. Especially those bad memories. Somehow, we must remember one thing, we must always be alert on what we had experienced before don't let ourselves have a chance to make the same mistakes, doing the same decision regrets for 2nd time.Sometimes, we are just temporarily feel unconvincing, when the dense fog in front your eyes has lifted, you will be able to see it clear and know what to do, so don't give up easily! We are extremely fortunate not to know precisely the kind of world we live in..We all need courages, motives, and ... ... Like others people do!Frankly speaking, I'm a bit regret to tell you my story through the e-mail. Don't get me wrong. I not here to say that you will disclosed or what. Just that sometimes I will choose to keep rather than tell. Although you're my best friend but I just don't want you to hold the responsibility that keeps worrying on me like hell. I'm glad that I have such a friend like you. Lastly, take good care =) Wish to see you soon after Chinese New Year =)

Hesitate..

I met a friend I haven't seen for awhile. All the while, I'm hesitate and trying to evade. My friends have comforted me. It's hard for a long time, should we see each other again like before? Already 3 years time, I spent a long time and now my promise set me free. How you doing lately, everything alright? Truthfully from my heart, all along I always thought that I spent so much time and efford in my studies at Malaysia is nothing wrong. No doubt for this. You can't blame on me saying that I'm the one who give up my chance to further study design course at overseas because this is my personal choice and it's my own future. Isn't you're doing the same thing as you just left Malaysia and went to UK to continue your studies? So please don't say that I'm spiteful or desolate, don't say my decision is wrong. There's nothing right or wrong. Our own path decide by ourselves. Fine, leave as you wish just pass me by, just take the memories without regrets, I'm able to handle it. Didn't you say our future was more important and we'll always support each other decisions? Didn't you get what you wanted? What is it now? Why are you coming to me saying different things. Don't tell me how exhausted you were. I might as well pretend I couldn't hear you and hang up. Don't turn back and live your life well. I had a friend. He always tell me that I'm just pretending and covering myself. He used to said that I actually do still care about you. Everytime I chat with him, he used to advise me that do not evade because of fears. Perhaps I should give you another chance because you've done a lot of things because of me. I should say thanks to him. He's the one who makes me think and think and never force me to decide what or how should I do. Now, I'm here to tell my friend that at the first sight he's right because all the while I still hesitating. But eventually now I already makes everything clear. You and me is just friends, nothing more.As time flow, all the memories can be forgotten. New can erase old and replaced it. Don't say I'm cruel. You already fading from my memories, whether you believe it or not. Time we needed already expired. Things that you doing now, it might just because of your emotional impulse. Try to think what you really want. We already wasted each other a lots of time.