Hesitate..

I met a friend I haven't seen for awhile. All the while, I'm hesitate and trying to evade. My friends have comforted me. It's hard for a long time, should we see each other again like before? Already 3 years time, I spent a long time and now my promise set me free. How you doing lately, everything alright? Truthfully from my heart, all along I always thought that I spent so much time and efford in my studies at Malaysia is nothing wrong. No doubt for this. You can't blame on me saying that I'm the one who give up my chance to further study design course at overseas because this is my personal choice and it's my own future. Isn't you're doing the same thing as you just left Malaysia and went to UK to continue your studies? So please don't say that I'm spiteful or desolate, don't say my decision is wrong. There's nothing right or wrong. Our own path decide by ourselves. Fine, leave as you wish just pass me by, just take the memories without regrets, I'm able to handle it. Didn't you say our future was more important and we'll always support each other decisions? Didn't you get what you wanted? What is it now? Why are you coming to me saying different things. Don't tell me how exhausted you were. I might as well pretend I couldn't hear you and hang up. Don't turn back and live your life well. I had a friend. He always tell me that I'm just pretending and covering myself. He used to said that I actually do still care about you. Everytime I chat with him, he used to advise me that do not evade because of fears. Perhaps I should give you another chance because you've done a lot of things because of me. I should say thanks to him. He's the one who makes me think and think and never force me to decide what or how should I do. Now, I'm here to tell my friend that at the first sight he's right because all the while I still hesitating. But eventually now I already makes everything clear. You and me is just friends, nothing more.As time flow, all the memories can be forgotten. New can erase old and replaced it. Don't say I'm cruel. You already fading from my memories, whether you believe it or not. Time we needed already expired. Things that you doing now, it might just because of your emotional impulse. Try to think what you really want. We already wasted each other a lots of time.