A Friend That Didn't Meet Up For 4-Years

05 February 2009. Yea, that's yesterday! Yesterday went out with Jac and SJ at Time Square. Too free nothing to do go there? Absolutely not! We went there buy birthday present. Frankly speaking, I not really want to attend the birthday party because first, too far away from my home(Cheras--Setapak); second, I don't know drive don't even have license; third, althought that girl was my schoolmates but I absolutely not close with her at all (obviously she knew me but I don't know her when secondary's school); fouth... etc. Oh well, I don't want to explain much and also don't want to 'take out' so many reason. Girls can have many reasons and excuse compared to guys! This is what's happening!!Since she so sincerely faithfully inviting me to attend her birthday party. Meanwhile, even I'm not planning to show up that day present is neccessary =) We thought need long time to choose the present but we seems over-estimated! Within 1 hour we finish buy the present! Well then what to do? Walk around then go Kim Gary have a drinks (I have a drink) and Jac SJ have their lunch =) sit there for a long long time chit chating. That's fantastics!! After that we go to Jac's place! Meet CL as well and we had our dinner together!When we almost finish our dinner at the restaurant. Two person walk in at CL realised that the 2 person looking at me. Once I look on that 2 person!! Oh gosh... they are my secondary school friends. One of them even same class with me when we're Form2. I do really very happy that they can still recognised me! It's been a long long time I didnt meet her-- 4-years! Yea 4-years we didnt meet! We didn't forget each other and still remember each other! Not easy =) Not bad too! Well once I chat with her, she start nagged me saying that I didnt find her didnt sms her or even call her. I felt so sorry too!! Once meet with secondary's friends, for sure my memories on that period all recalled!! We're fun that time, lots of things happened happy sad laugh jokes funny ... ... And so we really experienced a lots! Of course among the joyful time--Happy contained the largest portion =) No doubt for this!!I'd promise will contact her when I free =) Feel so sorry that I always busy on my own study!!

A day with a friend who 'usually' didn't turn his promise on!

Today was a great day. KC already promised me many times that he wanted to come my home find me, but he didn't keep his promised. Why he didn't keep his promise? All this is because he don't have car to drive to my home. How far he stayed? That's supreme bloody far--Kota Kemuning!! (Near Shah Alam area) Really damn far for me because I don't even owned a driving license. =.= But for him not that far actually. In condition got extra car for him to drive=)
Morning time, I call KC but he didn't pick up. But then later he called back LS. Noon time, CH go LS house take her then come over my house fetch me as well then we went KC's home. Reached his home then only realise that he didn't pick up my call this morning is because he still lying on his bed and no 'energy' to pick up my phone call as he too too too sleep! (sleep until noon time also said sleepy! Really no medicine to cure!!). He really home-alone nobody else at home!!
Thought sit for awhile but then we went for movies at Sunway Pyramid watched Underworld 3. TGV there damn a lot of peoples. Somehow we get to buy 16:30 tickets for the movie. This movies really not bad. Worth to watched =) (with student price only Rm8/= per person) ^^
Finished movie already 18:00++ LS claim that she's hungry. Therefore we plan to 'search' a place for our dinner. Final decision we go Pizza Hut for our dinner. It's already been a long long time I didn't eat Pizza Hut. (already 3years didn't eat at all) Supposedly after the dinner we should visit another friend's home. But because lack of time and very time consuming (as another friend stay PJ area). Hence end up we just 'return' back to KC's home continue our 'entertainment' =)
Suddenly, half way through the 'entertainment' his brother and sister-in-law come back from somewhere. What to do? Obviously wishing them Happy Chinese New Year for sure=)
After the few hours of 'entertainment' ... 23:30 we went to the nearest McD for drinks and chats!! (I treated them for sure because of some betting) Then we chat this and that here and there. I do understand that what you all trying to tell me=) Thanks dear=) (I mean dear friends for sure)
End of today, we back from KC's house from 01:00am. CH sent us (me & LS) back! Arrived my home already 01:35am. Not late, not that early! Finish shower and bla bla bla already 02:00am. Sleep in while soon!! I do really enjoying a great and wonderful day today!! WONDERFUL =)

Hesitate Again?

Hesitate again? Isn't just promise to myself that day would be the last time! What am I doing now? Or I'm just left out too many things between us. Stop asking me out. Don't makes me holds anything about you. All the while, I believe that I'm able to handle it. Those blogs that you spent time and write together with me. I do really appreciated a lot. I remember how you taught me within 2 years to improve my lousy mandarin. I do know that you can rather give up your dreams and come back to find me. I know you can do more for me compare with last time. Anyhow, don't forget that 3years ago is you yourself who saying that we should go for our own dreams. That time... you agreed and I agreed. Yea, there's nothing wrong that go for our dreams. But before you lefted our problem already occured. Before the lady step in, our problem already occured. Is there any reason behind that now you want to hold me back? But that day was the last day, I will not give myself any chance for us. I will not give myself any excuse for myself to have a chance write blog with you. Some memories it's really hard to forget because it's full of memories. Some memory I don't want to forget as well. So please don't come to me any closer. I don't know how many time I can control myself. Do not say easily forever, your pledge load that many.

Someone who being lost in the dense fog

Tonight.. have a great chat with my dear best friend. No doubt that's really a wonderful great chats. After tonights chats, I getting to understand her not absolutely but at least getting to know her well compared to last time. How long been we knew each other? Not a really long period for me. Yea, not really a long period! But both of us have that kind of 'secret agreement'. There's lots of similarity between us. I really can't imagine this. It's so amazing and fantastics =) Fate that brings both of us together? I guess so! I do really learnt a lot from her. I really apreciated our friendship very much and I'm glad that she treated me as her best friend! She know a lot about me and I do so know a lot about her. She used to remind me and wants me to bear in mind that 'don't get injured, always flirt with cautions.'. Perhaps, someday she may being astray being lost... And need someone to be there for her. I bet here, no matter how what when where, when she need a friend for help I'll be there for her. She meant what she trying to express to me and so me too =)Friend, you're the one who advised me don't hide myself and try to tell out what problem I'm facing when I facing something that I cannot go through. I wish you bear in mind what you told and advise me too. You're not alone. Yea, you might feel lonely sometimes, then think about me=) I will come to you when you need a friend. Don't hide yourself too! Everyone has their own story, everybody has their past. No people likes to disclose their past like headline news to everyone. Especially those bad memories. Somehow, we must remember one thing, we must always be alert on what we had experienced before don't let ourselves have a chance to make the same mistakes, doing the same decision regrets for 2nd time.Sometimes, we are just temporarily feel unconvincing, when the dense fog in front your eyes has lifted, you will be able to see it clear and know what to do, so don't give up easily! We are extremely fortunate not to know precisely the kind of world we live in..We all need courages, motives, and ... ... Like others people do!Frankly speaking, I'm a bit regret to tell you my story through the e-mail. Don't get me wrong. I not here to say that you will disclosed or what. Just that sometimes I will choose to keep rather than tell. Although you're my best friend but I just don't want you to hold the responsibility that keeps worrying on me like hell. I'm glad that I have such a friend like you. Lastly, take good care =) Wish to see you soon after Chinese New Year =)

Hesitate..

I met a friend I haven't seen for awhile. All the while, I'm hesitate and trying to evade. My friends have comforted me. It's hard for a long time, should we see each other again like before? Already 3 years time, I spent a long time and now my promise set me free. How you doing lately, everything alright? Truthfully from my heart, all along I always thought that I spent so much time and efford in my studies at Malaysia is nothing wrong. No doubt for this. You can't blame on me saying that I'm the one who give up my chance to further study design course at overseas because this is my personal choice and it's my own future. Isn't you're doing the same thing as you just left Malaysia and went to UK to continue your studies? So please don't say that I'm spiteful or desolate, don't say my decision is wrong. There's nothing right or wrong. Our own path decide by ourselves. Fine, leave as you wish just pass me by, just take the memories without regrets, I'm able to handle it. Didn't you say our future was more important and we'll always support each other decisions? Didn't you get what you wanted? What is it now? Why are you coming to me saying different things. Don't tell me how exhausted you were. I might as well pretend I couldn't hear you and hang up. Don't turn back and live your life well. I had a friend. He always tell me that I'm just pretending and covering myself. He used to said that I actually do still care about you. Everytime I chat with him, he used to advise me that do not evade because of fears. Perhaps I should give you another chance because you've done a lot of things because of me. I should say thanks to him. He's the one who makes me think and think and never force me to decide what or how should I do. Now, I'm here to tell my friend that at the first sight he's right because all the while I still hesitating. But eventually now I already makes everything clear. You and me is just friends, nothing more.As time flow, all the memories can be forgotten. New can erase old and replaced it. Don't say I'm cruel. You already fading from my memories, whether you believe it or not. Time we needed already expired. Things that you doing now, it might just because of your emotional impulse. Try to think what you really want. We already wasted each other a lots of time.

月亮忘记了

每个人每天都要看不同的风景，听不同的音乐，过着新的生活。世界是一切物质在永不停歇无规则的运动。地球同样在转，太阳一样的升起，但是感觉到不一样…每个人都有自己的曾经，每个人都有属于他们自己的往事。虽说是往事也已经事过境迁，该忘掉的就该把他忘掉。谁都会这么说，多么的动听！但办得到吗？真的那么容易把所谓的往事，过去曾经所发生的一切像粉笔字般擦得一干二净！朋友，你说得没错，就算我每天都笑脸迎人开开心心的过，但每当晚上夜深人静时就会开始思考开始想起记起一切，终究还是偷偷的哭泣眼泪淌了下来！就算表面上已经忘记了，其实也只不过是舒缓自己情绪的一种做法罢了！。或许这么说好让自己能过得舒服些吧！我们总是很拼命的想把一些事情遗忘，但其之后才察觉到遗忘并不难却也谈不上容易。还很在乎吧也很介意吧，不是吗？没关系就让自己尽情的在乎尽情的介意，疯狂的情绪之后；或许能清楚地知道自己该怎么做。至少，应该停此互相伤害吧；也应该停此伤害自己！一时三刻要你忘记是不可能的。给自己定下期限吧，每个人都需要时间，我也一样你也不列外。時間是給予所有的解決。牵手走过的这条路，分手了也在继续走吧。那么就不要回头，继续走！很多时候，过去是无从思念。遗失了发黄的照片，遗失了曾经保存很久的东西，遗失了枯萎的记忆…伸出手，抓不住任何东西。也许，总有些东西会留在生命最深处，深深浅浅的痕迹。不是没办法完全的遗忘也不是没办法完全的舍弃这些记忆；只是偶尔会想起那些当初…好像所有的轻狂所有的不羁，都可以在那个阶段找到理由！眼泪的存在，是为了证明悲伤不是一场幻觉；淡一点的疤还是疤。人类始终是人类，有情绪有感情也是感性的动物。人生中，有许多种爱，但别让它成为一种伤害！有些时候有些地方，我们轻易的找到幸福，然而有时候有些地方，我们再怎么努力，也遇不到一点点的快乐。有的东西你再留恋，也注定要放弃！

一个对海鲜敏感的人

S小姐,我答应过你的！怎么会这样呢？起因是… …一个月前的某一天…介于某些因素你游览到某个部落客的部落格。在阅读他人部落格之时，你发现别人的部落有些关于身边的朋友！忽然，你就在msn跟我抱怨说，怎么我们俩从朋友到现在好朋友，我都没为你写过一篇关于你的！于是，我就答应了你会抽出时间为你而写！3年前，2006年…刚搬家不久，还在纳闷该怎么办！去年中五毕业之后就去报读LCCI @ SEGi College！上课第一天，走进班望一眼没看见认识的朋友。算了，随便找个位子坐下来。没和任何人交谈就一个人坐！就这样，上了半天的课！中途休息时间，全都排队拿课本当然我也不列外。就在等待的那一刻，你走过来和我说话！在那之后开始，我们上课就坐在一起；当知道原来我们俩的家就住在附近，我么就连回家都一起！日子久了，去上课一起，在班一起坐，回家也一起，考试也一起！我们就是这样认识的…LCCI毕业后,开始就读ACCA.没想到，就连学院都选同一间(KSA)…相同的，我们一起去上课，一起坐，一起回家，差不多连去厕所都一起！直到今天…我们依然就读同样的学院。绝大部分的人都说我们长得很相似所以总被误以为我们是两姐妹！虽然不是真正的两姐妹，但其实没有什么分别。因为你比任何人更了解我！今年年头开始，我们不同班（因为你一次拿3张，而笨的我一次拿2张）。起初，还担心我们之间会不会因为这样而变得有距离变得冷淡。没有你坐在我隔壁我真的很不习惯。真的真的很不习惯。若我聪明一些就不会有这样的问题咯！哈哈！所幸的是感情依然维持！仍然一起出去，一起去疯狂。有什么事，我依旧会找你商量会找你倾诉找你‘麻烦’=) 而你也一样有什么都会告诉我！还记得我一遇到过多压力，舒解压力的坏习惯，总让身边的朋友担心操心。朋友之中，虽然你是唯一一个看到我在伤害自己也没有骂我的；但我知道其实你很关心我。只是看到我这么做，就让我做；因为你清楚地知道我不会笨到令自己死掉算了！那只是我舒解压力的方式！我很怕肥，总是不吃东西。最后，弄出病来逼得进医院，令‘胃痛’有机可乘的找上我。而你总是劝我多少也吃一点，逼都要逼到我吃一点！我脾气不好很小姐脾气，但你总是体谅我迁就我。每次当考试接近，我都很压力很紧张不能放松！就一个劲地读读读也不睡觉。你总会劝我说这样不行，至少要睡觉要适当休息。这样的知己朋友，哪里找！我能为你做的？？呵呵…就是我们一起出去逛街疯狂时，不去有海鲜的地方吃！因为啊…你对海鲜敏感！若问要我给你多少分你有85分！扣掉的15分是因为…你太高了！3年了。原来我们两个认识有3年了！3年时间虽然不短但也算不上是段很长的时间！但我想让你知道，我是真的真的很珍惜我们之间的友情和我们之间所建立的感情和默契！